Resolution for 2010

The New Year is 3 days old and I hope it’s not too late for my New Year resolution:

• Spend more quality time with family.
• Improve my relationship with Irene
• Work smart, play hard
• Be friendlier and more approachable when the situation needs it
• Be myself when I need it
• Sharpen my technical skills
• Sharpen my IQ and EQ
• Be more alert to news and updates
• Stay fit
• Spend more time reading
• Buy a house
• Buy a PC

Rains and Rainbows

I went to jog yesterday in the park although the weather didn’t look good. Well I was desperately in a need to stretch some muscles at that time because I've been spending most of my waking hours in the office or at home, staring at my laptop. It was a good jog and right after I've finished the final lap, it started pouring like there’s no tomorrow. I was both lucky and unlucky because if it started to rain while I was still running, I will be so soaked as I will always try to finish my 3 laps even under the rain. But in the same time I was stranded there in the park, taking shelter under a small hut while waiting for the rain to stop.

There were sunshine although the rain was so heavy until I could hear the sound of water rushing along the huge drain nearby. I was sitting and staring blankly up to the sky when I saw a spectrum of color right in front of my eyes. I thought it was some illusion caused by my exhaustion but the color didn’t go away even after a few blinks of the eyes. And in a split second, I noticed the whole portrait; it was a rainbow right in front of me.

Now this rainbow wasn’t the same with those that I've encountered before. Rainbow, as what I'd seen before was breathtaking, enormous and far from reach. But this one was just a few steps away from me, initiating from the ground, curving towards the sky. Now who said it’s hard to find the end of the rainbow?

Luck, has a different meaning across the elapse of time. Not getting wet in the rain might sound lucky but getting stranded in the park might mean otherwise. But just when you are ready to conclude that luck isn’t on your side, seeing a rainbow might make you reconsider the situation. It is all about how the portrait is seen

Me And My Weather

I'm like a molecule which state will be affected by temperature. Ok maybe this isn’t a very good analogy but I’m actually trying to relate my mood with the weather. It will be very much affected by the weather and I found out that I'm a lot more sociable during sunny days. Yes I'm often more chatty and approachable during that time and the warmth keeps my energy up. But too much of it will also result in unnecessary heat and shoots my temper up. So outings which involves interactions is better done during this time

As for gloomy and rainy days, I'll prefer more privacy. The cool weather will easily put me in deep thought, “living in my own world” some might say. So this is the best time to do stuff which doesn’t need interactions like surfing or reading.

But for sure the weather isn’t the only thing that affects my mood. How I wish it is and life will be a lot simpler that way 

Reflection

Saw “Reflection” in S’ blog and an idea struck me to reply in another perspective. This is S’:

I look upon the sky,
The clouds say HI;
I turn the pages,
The story ages;
I glance at my cover,
A ladybug climbs over;
Nothing more, nothing less;
All but just,
Reflections of summer.

And this is mine:

i look down on the ground,
the soil seems wet and brown,
i kick the dirt around,
while strolling my little town,
i sprint forward to embrace the wind,
the clouds say HI, i reply with a grin,
i tap my shoes to make them rhyme,
welcoming my summer, leaving spring behind

Slacking weekends

It’s Sunday night again, a time which most people don’t like much because the boring life in office or school needs to start all over again tomorrow. I didn’t do much these 2 days of weekends, just slacked at home, watched movies and did some reading.

It might sound a little wasted spending the weekends at home doing nothing but to me, I kinda enjoy it like this once in a while. In face I've been doing this 2 weeks in a row and I don't mind to do it for the 3rd time next week. The feeling of not having any plan in mind and wake up naturally in the morning to do whatever I feel like doing is so free and relaxing.

Although it’s Monday tomorrow, although I need to spend 5 days, basically 4 days of work like usual, but it doesn’t matter because the rewarding weekends are always ahead to keep me motivated. Although I know it won't be a weekend spent alone anymore on the next, but hey, life isn’t about spending time alone right? Spending time with others plays a huge part, and I'm working hard to make it a meaningful one :D

All about dinners

Had dinner with colleagues just now and the feeling was actually different from having the usual lunch with them. Although we were just doing the usual things, which are eating and chatting but the feeling of doing something without “work” in everyone’s mind is a different experience.

Had a good laugh of each other’s joke and got the chance to know WY better. Sometimes, seeing is not entirely believing because we need to also do the listening part to understand someone and the stories behind them. It is actually interesting to know the stories behind others and the things they’ve gone through rather than just from the windows of the soul

KM called today to diss me for not showing up lately for dinner. I didn’t know he will join actually because it was CK who invited me via MSN. Well although I was busy most of the time when he asked but sometimes, the mood just wasn’t there. And when it comes to subjective things like mood, I learnt that people just won't buy it as a reason. Yes, who wants to hear the “no I'm not in the right mood” answer which sounds too arrogant as a reason and more like an excuse

Half day leave!

I'm only working half day today and the reason is because of the suddenly generous team leader to offer a half day leave for us without condition. Spent it on movies and nap in the afternoon and went to the usual buddy day at KL after that.

It’s already Friday tomorrow; this week is passing really fast. In fact these few weeks are like a few blinks of the eyes, the cheerful Friday mood comes right after the Monday blue. Maybe the reason is due to my workload which is getting lighter and lighter since things are getting more stable now.

Will need to phone up those insurance people to settle my claims, really need to push them since it has been more than a year since it happened. The way they procrastinate makes me feel bad and it also reminds me of not having the same attitude at work.

Give me back my internet!

Reached home early today but disappointedly I couldn’t get online. So typing offline is the only thing that I can do for now until I can get back my connection early in the morning tomorrow at office.

I suspect that it should be the money that I owe TmNet but usually they won't just cut the line for the first 2 months. Maybe I've been taking that for granted although all it needs for me to settle the debts is just a few clicks away

I'm wondering whether if they are still having this RM10 service charge for the reactivation fee or to put it in another way, to penalize us for paying them late. Come to think about it, should they deduct a few bucks off the bill if we are having service interruption in our area which they call it as “Session Hang”.

Being grounded from the world wide web really feels bad. Think I'm already too comfortable and get used to hooking up my laptop and visit sites for updates. It feels alright even though all I will do is just to on my messenger and makes myself available for contact.

Pong

This is a fresh start, and it feels like walking in a foreign country without anyone knowing who I am. The good thing about this is I can write whatever that I feel like writing without anyone judging what I should and shouldn’t. There isn’t any feeling to take care of, or any unnecessary consequences that I might need to face over things that I feel like writing

Maybe there isn’t even anyone reading since blogs grow like mushrooms these days and I'm actually one of those insignificant ones but I don’t really care anymore. The purpose of my personal space here is to express myself and to keep track of things that I treasure or need to be aware of.

When one life ends, another begins…